i hate everything right now. okay, not EVERYTHING cause i still love TV and shun and yuya and shu. but apart from that and a handful of girlfriends i cant's seem to shake off this hateful feeling for every other thing.

am i going bad? i can totally feel my heart turning a dull shade of black. like apples left out too long in the open, i feel myself rotting slowly from the inside, outside. what happened? why can't i live in a world of pink and roses and hello kitties?